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07/31/26 @ 11:19 PM

having a janky 7/10 jrpg as your "forever favorite that changed my brain chemistry as a teenager" story is kind of embarassing. like, don't get me wrong, i love nier gestalt/replicant, but there is no way i can seriously revisit it or talk to others about how much it meant to me without looking like the world's biggest nerd (derogatory) (TToTT)

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07/19/26 @ 9:49 PM

i know a lot of people say this, but i'm going to say it too: how did i manage to have so much energy and get so much done in high school? i would get up around 7 in the morning, spend 7.5 hours at school, and spend another 1-2 doing homework, yet i still managed to draw a ton, play video games, and regularly go to bed late. i have similar hours now, both for when i wake and how many hours are spent doing things like working or commuting, but it's so hard to do anything else. i'm not that much older, so i'm not really sure what it could be. by no means do i want to be my younger self again, but i am very impressed by how well she could manage her time, when she was willing to do so.

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07/11/26 @ 2:00 PM

i often wonder if there's something a bit defective with my soul. it's not wrong or bad, per se, i just think a few wires were crossed or never plugged in to begin with. i don't know why i have that thought so much lately. i suspect it's because i spend most of my days working around "normal" people, and i also spend more time around some of my friends that i'm not super close to anymore.

maybe i feel that way because i have adhd? maybe my time away at a weird, insular school has changed me for the worse? who knows...

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07/03/26 @ 2:17 PM

one generation gives way to the next. thank you, 2025-2026 academic year planner, for serving me so well (￣^￣ )ゞ